Thursday, August 25, 2011

Mental health break

I am alive! I decided that since I am starting a round on September 3rd that I needed a mental holiday from the obsessing and constant weighing. I haven't weighed in a week and it is still in the back of my mind but I am just trying to enjoy. I feel like I am staying the same, my clothes still fit the same, I have become for conscious about my belly but I feel like it has been that way since I added back in carbs.
Dont worry I will go back to updating frequently when I start P2

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

yep.. still P4

Yeah.. So I think I spent all of yesterday pooping.. supper gross I don't know what was wrong with my stomach! I suspect some of it might be that I am allergic to cashews and I didn't realize they were hidden in my nut clusters I was eating. By the time dinner rolled around I wanted bread to help my sick tummy so I had an open faced turkey sandwich. Down -2.4 today!

I have been feeling kinda fat recently, its so funny because I know I have lost 30 pounds but some days I don't feel like I haven't lost anything! I still feel supper self concision about my belly fat. I took measurements for the first time in about a month and I am exactly the same on my arms and chest, down .8 on my thighs, but up half an inch on my hips, 1 inch on my waist and 2 inches in my bust. Its funny how everything reportions itself when my weight stays exactly the same!

I think I am going to do another round after September 3rd. Hopefully that will be good timing because I will be settled into a school schedule and I cant think of any big celebrations.

Monday, August 1, 2011

The self doubt monster

I am 1.6 over LDW today, not surprised though.. I think my diet yesterday consisted of mostly cupcakes and cookies :( I am living by the be good through the week manta so I can correct all the bad things I do over the weekend. I am learning to take it easy on myself because I have learned with a couple of days of good eating I will always drop right back to where I was!

The self doubt monster is creepy back up today and I considering if I need to do another round. I have been so confident lately about my body and where I am, plus the supper hunky guy didnt hurt, but today I look at my little muffin top over my junior size 7 shorts and wonder if I need to loose more? I have a feeling this will always be an ongoing thing... right now is a horrible time to start a round anyways maybe I will consider it when the school year starts.